Salvia divinorum session 3: 10 April 2002
9 to approx. 9.10 pm

Using Y's water pipe and standard strength SD. I took two pipes full. The smoke was quite harsh, so hard to get it all down.

As I felt the now familiar tingling, I sat back in the chair. I saw brown leaves, like tiny tobacco leaves, encase my legs and body, and became aware of a group of beings that were quite agitated and urging me to come with them deeper into the state. It felt like they were trying to pull me out of the top of my head. This was a familiar feeling from other sessions, and is what happens when I enter their reality. They keep urgently repeating that ‘Muskraladrew is waiting', for me, presumably.

I hadn't had much SD, and found it hard to follow them deeper. I explained this, but the were insistent: ‘Muskraladrew is waiting'. They seemed quite impatient with my excuse, and I got the impression they thought I wasn't trying hard enough. I focused on moving deeper into the SD state, and felt my awareness flow out of my head and over the edge of the top of the chair.

A yellow being was there. This was Muskraladrew, and he was pleased I had made it to the meeting. 'Muskraladrew is here', he said, and then repeated the phrase approvingly, as if with a nod. There is still some ambiguity in my mind about whether Muskraladrew is the being or I am. At times I'm quite sure Muskraladrew is the being, but the way he said 'Muskraladrew is here' made me wonder.

The being explained that there wasn't time to give me any useful information now, but that was fine, as he would come back with me. The SD state was starting to fade, and I felt myself being pulled back into my normal self/body again. The being was flowing with me, back into my normal state. I wasn't too sure about this, as it seemed unclear whether he was coming into my body or just into my normal reality and staying nearby, but it felt OK.

As I came back to myself, I had the feeling that he was sitting close to the back of my head. 'Muskraladrew is here', he said gently, 'Muskraladrew is waiting.' I took this to mean that Muskraladrew would remain waiting near the back of my head until my next SD session.

I felt quite odd when I opened my eyes – It felt odd, though not uncomfortable, to be in this reality. The thought occurred that this was what Muskraladrew was feeling, but it didn't feel that way to me.

The session lasted about 10 minutes.

Though I'm not aware of the being most of the time, occasionally I will get the phrase 'Muskraladrew is waiting' in my head, as if he's reminding me that he's still there. This has probably happened on average once a day since the session. It happened much less over the CEM weekend, but I noticed it quite strongly during this morning's meditation. I haven't noticed it at all during the day, which suggests that it comes when my mind is quite and receptive.

16th April, from notes taken immediately after the session.

I would add that my sense of the presence of the SD being faded over the following weeks and never felt uncomfortable.

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